2018: the year I have finally created the distinction I needed to discover who I am. I am 21 years old and have recently been struggling with the idea of my identity. This is a common struggle among many people, especially my age. I tend to get lost in relationships or other people’s identities when it comes to making and creating my own. This causes me to lose myself…who I am…which then results in me not loving myself the way I need to. I get stuck in this cycle of constantly giving myself away, to make others around me feel loved and appreciated when I don’t feel that for myself. I have found my voice, I have found the person I am and I will never allow people to walk all over me or take advantage of me again. I feel I can finally breathe knowing I have myself when no one else does. I am starting to do the things I enjoy, rediscovering my interests, and having fun living my life. I feel as though I am radiating from the inside out with positivity and love for everyone. I feel a glow from within and I feel myself growing as a person. Kindness is all I can give people, even through the pain I have endured over the past couple of years, I will always remain kind. It is a completely liberating feeling being able to sit here and not allow anyone to blow out my flame. I am strong. I have proven to myself I can hit rock bottom and continue moving forward in a positive direction. I am happy. I am enjoying the small and simple things I have interests in, like watching independent films or writing all my thoughts and feelings in my journal. From this moment forward I will continue to follow my dreams, be ambitious/spontaneous, radiate kindness and positivity, and be happy. Don’t let anyone dull your sparkle, and become the change you want to see in the world.
otherwise the butterfly surrounded by a group of moths
unable to see itself
will keep trying to become the moth.”